Just sleepless

For the first time in life, i really don't know why i cannot get into sleep. There is something in my heart that is troubling me, but it seems that i cannot describe what is actually wrong at all. Simply disgusting yet cannot put into words.

For a moment, i was really 'over the moon' for today. For the next moment, i'm totally in the bottomless valley. Year 2007 is coming in, yet i'm full of disillusion and saddness. The problems lies with me and not anyone else.

Year 2006 was a wonderful year for me..
Chinese New Year Eve
24 Feb - Friday
12 to 14 Jun
10 Aug - Friday
27 Dec - Wednesday

It is really really a good year for me. I met new friends, someone was in the level of closet(the highest level of friendship), i entered into real adulthood, i entered in University, i got 1 lao da, i did something extraordinary and many more.

As far as i know, we would be going on different course from next semster onwards, and i understand that it is inevitable. But, just feel a little sad over it ba..
What's got into me...

I know i should not be like this and i know i should let go of this... But...


Can such friendship still be that way in the next semester to come??
A month without contact have already made it so strange to reunion.
What about a semester.
I cannot imagine...