chocolates of 21 different flavours

Where??

?? - that's the thing!

Metamorphosis seems undeniable...
Taking things for granted seems inevitable...
Feeling sad and disappointed seems inresistable...
Giving up seems unavoidable...

Stages in life, a vicious cycle.

Slacking hard during exams.... Suddenly, i like examination weeks...

They told me:" Don't take things too personal." I replied:"So is personal?"

It is now the last week of my Year 1 Semster 1 (pls lah, exlcude examinations and reading week). Till now, i have a deep and unwanted feeling - old. Sighed... There are a lot of things that i want to do by the end of this week. Dreams are still flying high and high.

This month, the month of November, isn't a good month. It did not start out well, neither did it carry on smoothly. Miscommunication & Misunderstanding (Wow, two bombistic words!). Yup, this it it. Things seems to working out very well, it is rather hard to explain things out, especially when there are too many committments to see to. I guess pushing things back and keep them hanging in air till dust and dirt are settled is only of the few solutions that i can think of (Brain-dead la, study too much le la).

Soon, i'm turning a year older (you want to know my exact age? Ask me lo. But, i guess i cannot reveal it.Why? Very embarassing one la). Sighed, 1 more candle of my birthday cake; a year closer to contribute to the aging population -- now, i'm a member in the junior category of the senior citizens' cohort.

Laying on a beach, listening to the splashing water waves, feeling the wind gliding slowly across my face, glazing at the sky (the sun is hiding behind the thick layers of white clouds). Wow, nice!

Now, back to study.

Back to study, got a degree, not very happy.
PhD, when will it be?
Must mug hard to achieve that dream... Muahah

Disappointment might seems to be a 14letters word, yet there are many many hidden meanings.

I'm still at the cross road junction, trying my best to choose a way. So how come i'm back to the cross road junction, you might want to ask. Well, i guess that's the problem about people who have extremely high EQ value. They tend to see things in others' shoes, they offer their best to everyone around them, they give all out to people surrounding them. They don't see things for themselves, they don't mind being the backstage crew. They won't mind no one appreciating them, they won't mind being someone who are at the back; no one bothers. But, what they can't take it was when someone, whom they cared and shared tremondously, actually fails to understand them.

Could you still remember what's your friend favourite food or drink?
What your friend is allegric to?

Well, it would not be suprizing if you can't do that, for your love mate (girlfriend or boyfriend),let alone your close and good friends.

I guess, most probably by now, you would get the ideas of what i have landed back to the cross road junction. NO one is to be blamed. But, what hurt the most is when someone actually shoot out a word:" Disappointment" to you.

For what we live?
For what we love?
For what we make friends?
For what we move on?

I have a dream. I have a promise. I have a plan. But, i hope to have a moment, just a single moment, even a split second with do, just understand me. One way traffic is tiring. By the time when all cars are over to your side, i have no cars to send over. It will stop and disappear one day. ONE DAY!

Disappointment - a word that has only 14 letters yet it has many many meaning behind it. A scary to be used.

After using Rose D'iris, i feel that the temperant and easily agitated me has gone with the wind. The effect is the same as using Green Apple- Cheery and Happy.

Today, i had a talked with someone and i asked about the idea of 'Delayed Judgement'. Is this idea a temptation or trial?

There are many things in me that are in process, quasi-static processes.
Haiz...