The show starts finally!

Finally, the show has started. The Chalet Party has been unveiled and commerced this morning. The show is been looked forward by many people and till now it is still smooth and steady. Hoepfully, it will continue to turn out to the way that organisers expected.

Just 2 more days, we will enter to a new calendar year, a year of which most guys looked forward too. Today will be the last day of Year 2005 that i appeared here, the enxt time i appear, it will be Year 2006 2nd Jan! So let me take this time to review the Year 2005 and projected my Year 2006.

In Year 2005, there are alot of things to be proud and happy about:
(1) Re-learning and making of friends.
After the death of 2 close friend and colleague of mine, i've realise that time is running short and friendship is that important to me. Yes, in Year 2006, i'll still be the guy who puts friendship at first prority and stay affirm of the Xingz' theory of Smiley!

(2) Completion of the Basic and Advanced Driving Theory.
Sounds a little stupid here, but to me this is yet another important stage to better future. Till today, i'm proud to say that i'm in stage 3.5 of 10. Way to go! Hoepfully by the end of April next year, i'll be in phase 4 of 10.

(3) Attend the Physics Introduction to University.
Yeah, i have took up the course and it lasted for 3 months. Well, glad that i have completed the course and passed with flying colours (though they have yet to issue me the certificates and i'm lazy to chase after them).

(4) More and more parties.
No comment for this, but i can only say that i'll still be as wildful as i can be for at least the remaining 6 moths before i actually start slogging for my studies and better future.

(5) Doing of Business.
Though gave up in the end, the experience is fruitful and never see before in the study life. Well, can only conclude that teaching is still my cup of tea after all.


On the other hand, there are things to grieve about but not anymore from today onwards..
(1) The lost of my loved ones.
Yes, i broke up with her for about 8 months or so already, so it would not hurt that much as compared to early april this year. Nevertheless, still hope that she has the best of what can be given to her. All the best, dear!

(2) BUsiness loss
Inevitable when doing business. But forget it, take it as a fee for the experience gained.


So what am i looking for in Year 2006.
(1) a Better future and a livelier environment.
(2) a more smiley me and more funky friends to chill out with.
(3) Sunny yet windy days!

So that's all folks. Happy New year. May you have a blessful and funky year ahead. Be caught with a smile always!

Suddenly, i feel alive again

Today is my first day of being a 20yrs old person. Though only received one gift this year, i'm still very happy that most of my friends have sent in their greetings and blessing since 12am yesterday. Thanks buddies and friends!!

So what has made me feeling alive again?
Believe it or not, i was trapped in the camp to help one of my friends to do his guard duty as he is on leave. (Yes, you might scold me stupid. Fancy taking a duty on my birthday.) Guess what? I'm grateful and happy that i actually took the duty. Why? Well, i met one of my long lost secondary school friends, we stayed up the whole night to chat and catch up with each other's latest progress. The feeling of chatting with a close buddy was so nice and so heart-warming. Yup, you can guess it, he was the one who gave me a gift. (Anyway, MS thank you!Poly life has actually made you to be a better man. Your thinking is so much more matured and sensible. Yup, never regret staying up the whole night to chat with you.)

Anything more than this?

Yup, managed to make one new friend in my tour of duty (sound a little child-like right? Well, that's me lor...). OK la, so happy that he still remember me after the duty. Really, it brighten my whole day. Believe it or not, till now, i'm still so happy about it. Yeah!

So Year 2005 will leave us and exit out of our life soon, have you all made your resolutions? If yet to, better start doing now. If you ask what's resolutions, haha, i can only tell you this:

- Hope that in Year 2006, my days remain as happy as it can be. Joys and Laughters remain as it is. And i can make more friends.. Yeah!

Sound stupid? Well, that's me!!

Finally, the wonderful day is closing in

Yup, people browsing this page often may start to wonder where i went for the whole of last week. Hahaz, well, that's not the issue anymore. I'm here again.

Really cannot imagine that Year 2005 will be gone forever in just less than 5 days time and sure enough, Year 2006 will be taking its entrance (to many of us, Year 2006 will be taking quite a considerably huge entrance). So what's is so special about this year celebration? Well, the preparation for this year's countdown party started way back in June this year, due the last minute planning and natural disaster that happened last year, the committe decided that this year's party (no matter what) cannot and must not fail. A chalet 3 days 2 nights count down, there is, with 5 different themes and 2 different ways of celebration to signify vibrant and youthful life, yet well-prepare for the future; harmony and everlasting. Sound interesting? Food, Games, Wines, Alcohol, dances (can anything be better than this? Maybe foam party! BUt that's not the point. The point is 36 hours of fun and entertainment to welcome the Year 2006). Yeah....

You know what or not?

14days more and we will bid Year 2005 and welcome Year 2006. How time flies. This year has been sort of a up and down year for me. From breaking up with a girl to knowing more funky people and going for crazy parties. Yup, done a lot of things that i have thought it could be impossible.

Yup, yesterday was one of our bros birthday. So all the rest of us got out together with him and have a nice dinner (with some appertizers that are absolutely horrible), after which, it was a clubbing (initially we were told that the place would be fun and entetaining, yup. But, some how the beauty and hunk contest is sort of not too nice). In the end, we ended up in Double O (the music is power, the crowd there is quite wild and of course, the drinks there are very cheap - a jug of rainbow cost only $14). But what's so bad about there was, it closes at 4am. Haiz....

If love is a pricky issue, then i think it is the heart would should have the decision making right (Pardon me for being a little nosey). So you are trapped in a relationship(or should i say a stage of dilemma). Though you heart says a thousand and one reasons why you should go for it, your logic is coming up with a reason to say no. And there you are cornering yourself up. Yup, for your case you have 2 doors only (with actually the door of wanting ajar) - take it or leave it. Like what i still insist - there is no forever in anything, what matter the most is now. After all, it would be the best thing to do by letting the heart to decide what it wants rather than the logics in this case. MaY the forces be with you ( you know who you are).

Hahazz..

A period of settling down time

There were too many things happening for the past three days (be it good or bad). So it is best to let me voice them out and release all the feelings that were being stored in me.

Again, maybe it is my fault , i find it hard to adapt after the incident. Well, it seems to me that my whole office building is dead, the spirit is still so low, so low. Yes, there are laughters, but not long. Everyone is still quite upset for the loss. Haiz, indeed it is quite a painful experience. Yup, his wife and children have returned back to Singapore, still deciding th aftermath procedures.

Finally, i got to watch Chicken Little today. Yup, by right i should have watched this show last saturday or even sunday. Ok, never mind. Yup, so went to watch the movie with one of my best camp mates (I think i only got a handful of good camp mates). Ok la, it is sort of worth the money. I love that chicken little and of course, that porcupine (he's cool, wow!). So what happen? Me and my bro end up laughing, swinging back and forth.. NIce movie, good crowd.

Yup, good neews to poor souls like me (ie. ending the service on the same day as me), we have 167 days more (corrected as of 15 Dec 05 { Inclusive of Public Holidays and weekends}) and for me personally, well i just got 100 more days (excluding public holiday, leave and weekends!)! Yup!

Still mourning, but slightly better

Well, today is Ken's B'day and my mission has been completed with full success (Heard from my friends). So what did i do? Haha, it is for me to know and for you to find out.

Grieving is still the word that i would use for today. Though i'm not close to this officer, his death was, not only, but a big blow. Can you just imagine how it would be like when you get to chat with him on Friday happily, still greeting him with a great smile and he just creeps out of the world within 24 hours time? (Mind you just that 24 hours). Yes, i may look fine in appearance, (hey don't judge a book by its book) i'm still sad for his family. Yup, they are, most probably, ones who are now the most heart-broken ones on earth. Haiz, think till here, well, my heart would seems to lose its momentum and the brain seems to be out of control.

A very painful lesson learnt, just the one i had when i was in Sec 3 though the impact is lesser as compared, i think this would be brought with me till it's my last time smiling.

Well, if he does see this >> Ken, Happy Birthday! May your wishes all come true. Yup, so did you manage to have your spirit back for your birthday celebration?

Life is really too fragile, thou there are ups and downs

Today was nearly being marked as a day that i cried (Hey, did i say the word 'really'?).
I really cannot imagine that within 48hours, things would change so drastically. Within these 48hours, I have lose yet another colleague in the name of traffic accident. He has left behind, sadly, a wife and 2 children (8 and 10 yrs old respectively). I stoned for the whole morning upon hearing the news when i stepped into the office. My mind went blank, till now no words could actually describe the real feeling in me. Life is so unkind. It just took away a good man, of whom, of good heart, wanted to spend more time with his family by taking them for a holiday. Just like that, he creeps out of the world quietly, leaving his loved ones in agony and tears. So are we just waiting for this moment to come? I know i should be brave in this issue, but look at the weeping widow and innocent child, look at them, would you still tell me the same piece of advice? I really don't know what i can really do now, but to do what my seniors have said - contribute some money for them, for at leat can ease some burden off the pitiful widow.

But what holds me back from crying was an old friend, of whom i have not seen since Sec 4. Yes, so good that he still remember me. Lucky.

Overall, i would call today mourning monday.
Maybe this would serve yet another important lesson - time is really very precious and life is really full of uncertainites.

I'm really very sad.

Perhaps I'm too friend-orientated, that's why i'm easily happy

Yup, perhaps, i'm too friend - orientated, that's why i'm easily happy nowdays.
So that's me and my stupid thinking. Perhaps, i have thrown the face of guys, for being so emotional. Who cares?

So what am i happy about le?
Yes, i finally get to see my dear dear today, it's been 8 months i last seen my dear dear. Yes, 8 months!!

Though it is merely a mac dinner, it is worth the time and my effort to meet up.
For at least i get to know my friend's latest update..

Yup, so i'm happy.
Simple - minded, i may seems.
But i don't care about it anymore.

Theory and Actual Practical are really different

Yup, i think we can throw away the book and call it a day. That book cost $3.70 and the test cost $6. I have passed them and now in the practising phrase. Some theories taught are out - dated and old. Can be thrown away!!

Haiz...
So guilty is covering all over me at this moment, i did one move that i think i should have do it. Well, a selfish act i should say. A very selfsih act! Haiz...

So this is seems so typical, except that i'm in the 2nd stage of chalet planning out of 3 stages. Yup, programmes! The programmes are not finalised yet. Soon! People, give me one more week.

Too a typical. Cannot take it!

Dreams are tempting, but...

What Jackson have told me that night is true, though it is painful upon waking up from the dreams that were once established, honestly speaking, who aren't sad or hurt upon waking up from such things?

Yup, the 2 years have indeed broaden my view, i used to think that my microscopic bird-eye view is majestic and fantastic, until these 2 years. If there is something you must learn in the involuntarily service that i need to contribute, perhaps re-learning is the word to describe. And this word is of very broad meaning and i shall save the whole defintion for the good of mankind.

So that is.

If by describing me, you would use friendly, then i think i have got myself trapped in a place where no one would ever want.

The children-phobia

"Children are nice."
"They are so cute and innocent!"
"See, so nice to see children."

Oh please spare me from this, i went to see the doctor. Guess what? I was being diagnosted with Children-Phobia. Oh well, it is a nice type of phobia. It is a mild syndrom whereby you will get tensed up, stress up and frighten off by children (I mean people of whom are ten years and below). The, you will feel like dying and crying when thye are near you. What's worst? You feel like killing yourself to end the misery when they started crying and wailing. Yup, so what's worst than sitting around a child? Well, i think it would be sitting around a wailing child. It is even noisy than a thursday club. So probably you might wonder if i will have children in the future? Well, as for this ten years.. It would be a NO NO NO!!

So what do people of my age usually do? I don't about the rest, but for me i think enjoying life. Not for long, but for at least these remaining 6 months, let me play and be wild before i have to tune myself back to reality and start to slog for my future, a better tomorrow. Yes, sound quite pathetic but it is true.

So there i go Momo, Zouk, Chinablack and etc.. Yup, clubbing, that is. Well, i like clubbing more than pub or even bar, for at least i get to dance. (Sorry, though i'm not pro-dancer, but after drinking, i believe, dancing should be the next in line action) Maybe for the next 3years or so, i will still prefer clubbing than pub or bar. Why? I think fun and enjoyment should be there when you want to have a good nightlife. Chill out is still okay for me.

Yup, there's a song that strike my mind yesterday at La ViVa. And it hits my history textbook. Yup, a painful memory.

Plans... What does this word tells you?

There is where you should be for the moment, it is better not to change your pathway as for now.

Well, specially dedicated to a friend who told me that he envied me for being financially dependent and wild in my life. Seems good and still, may be bad in some ways.

I can only cite the following phrase:
People who know everything would want nothing and people who know everything hope for nothing! Why? As they knew the pain and stress in knowing something.

Well, i would deny the fact that planning is good, or rather, it is good to plan fo your future. For at least you will then have a goal and start to work hard in order to achieve it. But, what comes with the planning? It is not simply planning for the sake of planning. There are more to meet the eye. Money?

Money is not everything, but it is one thing that you cannot possibly don't have. You need it for food, for living and for a tomorrow. You need it to live, to put it simple.

So what's the point of planning so much for the future, whereby money would be 1 such issue to hinder you? Especially during this wonderful period of time where you should go out there to have a life, a funky and enjoying life of which you never have had before. Instead of slogging so much for the future. Shouldn't you spend the time to play and relax, before entering Uni to slog for studies, then entering the working society to slog for work, family, life and a better tomorrow?

Live it, enjoy it and play.

So conflicts and friction would tend to occur when you are tired but someone still does things that you wouldn't want it to happen. And when you start to show concern, someone would pick up a quarrel with you. So what's wrong with showering a little bit of concern? I can just simply ignore you and let you die, but i choose not to. So for what come and pick up a quarrel with me? It doesn't mean anything to me, maybe to you, you would feel proud to win the bickering session. Is the outcome desire? Is this what you want? Yup, i can choose to quarrel with you so much so because you are wrong in the first place to do things that you should not do. Since you choose it to be this way, it is fine with me, don't come crying to me when you are scolded by people for the things that you should not even try to do at all.

So now is the month of December, many plans would definitely come in actions. And well, many more fun outings should come into places.

Yup, hopefully i can meet up with more friends and have more tea-talk session (cks Latte).