Slack to appreciate life

If you know how it feels to be in office from 8 to 7 daily, you might be able to understand absolute boredom you would to face if you have no projects / assignments in your hand. Well, today i got this feeling, it is kind of not very nice because my whole 4 hours was wasted, or should i say completely wasted?

Yes, it is very good to find time to slack if you are doing things that were in your own accord, for example contributing my pride, my youth and my time to an organisation that i have least interest in, with so many regulations that are out to bully us. But, it will be bad on the other hand. I'm wasting my good 4 hours on nothing but sitting in the room, enjoying the cool air (thanks to the national air-con!) and a stupid computer in front of me. It is kind of wasting 4 hours of my youth which could be put into good use somewhere, like cycling, fishing or even studying. It is a kind of turn-off for me. A really turn-off.

Ok, let's forget about the involuntarily service i was forced to contribute, talk about something nice, comforting and funky. Ya?

Finally, there is one such show which is able to capture my whole 1 x hour a day in front of the tv - Changjin (a korea show), that is. It is unlike the typical show i get to see from HK, where kissing and 'talking love' are the main emphasis of the show or where by the crime plot was being expected in the very first episode. This show is exciting and soul-capturing because of 1 word - realistic! But too bad, most of my weekdays evening are booked fully. So, maybe i got to buy the whole drama series to enjoy it when my time to slack comes.

So glad that "xIngZ's theory of smiley" is quite acceptable , or should i say most people still think it is aren't stupid at all. Well, perhaps i should push it to a large scale ? Erm.. Worth a try..

I'm looking forward to Late October and early November, for at least most of ym evenings will be free up for me to go chilled or chiong with my brothers, buddies and friends.

Yeah...

Before i end, let me conclude-> so did you smile today?

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Coming soon... Dreams 4

Jus... Lazy

I just simply don't understand how come i feel so tired for the past few days. Yes, maybe lack of sufficient sleep. But, i tried that last night, so felt so tired, so restless for the whole of morning.

Or maybe exercise too much? Erm.. I doubt that can be the reason.

Haiz, whatsoever, the day is ending soon.
Come on, people, let's smile! End the day with joys!


This week seems boring as it can be, work, tuition, exercise, eat, sleep and read.

Hahaz..

Oh ya, just to remind all people about this: Hello people, this is to annouce that i still got just 8 more months to flash out my yellow ribbon. Hahaz... Yes, just 8 more months (inclusive of my leave, public holidays and weekends. 8 MORE MONTHS. Be happy. Smile, people.

Just smile!

Cos.... Smile bring courage to the discouraged, drive troubles away from the worries, spice up life and bring the world closer. Tomorrow will be another funky day for me.


SMILE!

My new spectacles

Well, went to make a new pair of specs just now, after realsing that my spare specs was gone for the good of mankind. Erm, impulse shopping can be bad sometimes. (So i dun think i should further elaborate loe..)


My theory of smiley, or to be formal "Xingz with a big smile" theory seems to be work for some and seems to fail for others. But, who cares? Start the day with a big smile, the whole day will be a smooth-sailing one. Even it isn't, keep the good-looking smile on the face lor, nothing would dampen my spirit. End the day with a smile to conclude the wonderful. Why is it wonderful? Cos... You will never wake up and find yourself in the same old day again. (ie. There will never 2 days with the date 27 Sep 2005). Every day is a unqie day, a special day, just liek human lor.. All of us are unique le (hahah..)

Anyway, my heart still ache a little for buying that pair of specs, it is not the frame which cost a bomb. It is the lenses!! Want to know more? Well, wait till we meet the next time round, you see for yourself lor..

By the way, when patch of grass taste better huh? (I think i have to eat grass fo the rest of the month. Economic! Simple to digest! And a fact that cannot be denied -it is healthy!)

Hahaz..


Just managed to roamed round all the blogs of my brothers, buddies and friends. Well, changes are inevitable, this is what i can say only. But, in the process of changing, don't forget to do one thing!! SMILE!

Cos, smile will bring courage to the discouraged! Drive troubles away from the worries, spice up the life and bring the world closer..

So have you smile today?
: ) hey, this is me!! Smiling to end this blog session!!

Full drained out of energy

Finally, after a 2 hours of basketball game yesterday evening and a 2 hours of tennis match today, i'm drained out of energy.

After so many days after the AHM, this is my first time feeling so exhausted and tired. My legs refused to move and my body is too tired to even jerk. Oh, wow..



Haiz..
I seriously need a new pair of spectacles, lost one of my old pair last week (an incident never to mention!!). Now i'm like losing my wonderful vies to the earth (Just kdding). Just think i should go make a new pair of glasses..

Yup, but, i don't what to choose again. (No contact, please!)

Sianz, must find time to go to the optical house to see see look look lor..


Cannot, i think i should stop here.. Must go and rest le...

I miss

Well, i happen to saw a few students of mine just now, i must admit one serious fact about life. Well, i'm older, does it mean i'm dying soon? Or does it mean i'm really very old? Not necessary, it can mean i'm more matured, more (ok la, i stopped praising myself, some might puke, some might wanna to kill me).

Nonetheless, i cannot deny the fact that i'm turning twenty in three months time (Oh, people envy me). Yup, to change from a boy who only know how to play catching, hopscotch, hide and seek to a young person who deals with various responsibilities, be it heavy or not. IN fact, i don't even know whether i'm prepare to take over the duties and fulfil them with my best or not. Till now, i only know how to be a friend or even be a buddy to many, be a student and be a teacher to some. So? Am i prepared? who knows..

Yeah, people need to change , be it appearance or thinking. I don't deny the fact that we must change to survive in the 'war'. But, can we inject warmth and love in it too? Yeah, my stupid thinking and wish. Call me stupid, if you want. But, that's my thinking unless you can prove me otherwise.

Appearance, i think being the ugly group of people, i need to do much to impove my look? Haha, just kidding. Like what i say, life is short, make it sweet. Grooming is important. Yeah, i went to hunt for watches today, hours and hours. I start to realise one thing, to shop for things you desire and actuallyy want, it is always best to shop alone. Yeah, this was what i did. BUt, did anyone ever caution you that you should check out the local map before walking around the place? Thanks, after hours, i don't see any watches of my desire. So? forget it lor, call it a day lor... I though of making contact lens, my impression of it was postive all the way till when i visit the Eye Care Unit in TTSH, saw the various diseases and infections caused by contact, i've killed, burned and buried the idea of it. Forget it! Specs are nicer, cool and safer. (Yeah, i'm timid, i don't dare to put things in my eye, cos i'm afraid that when i take out the things, i may take out more than what i out in.)

So?

Changes, but, i hope mine will be more postives.



HAVE YOU SMILE TODAY?

Happy-go-lucky

1 x very happy-go-lucky person.
Serve the rest of the 8months plus of 'Voluntarily' service, give the tuition and mentally torture the student, crack jokes and hang out with friends, takes things in his strides, even the sky falls he still remain calm and happy. Well, really dun understand how he thinks and how will his friends be shocked of it, who cares. He likes it to be this way ba. Impluse!

People change alot, he also change so much that he dun have the look of what he was in the secondary school - the nerdy look. Oh god. Give him a break..

Nope, he did not pick up smoking, he did not go astray, but, just a little cool and a little happy-go-lucky. He wants to break free from the routine meaningless life, he had enough of it. So enough that he thinks he should change to a more funky one.

Haha, he still loves to study, Physics and music are still his forte, but, he loves to play and hang around too. Perhaps, that's him.

Not a nerd, but, not yet a funkyrider!

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Well, SMILE!
Cos it bring courage to the discourage, drive troubles away from the worried, kill of frustration from the anger people. More of all, it wil spice up your life.
So have you smile today?

That's me, the man who don't wish to wear any mask at all.

The mask is too heavy for me to wear, it weighs more than a ton. With that stupid mask on, i will be like a bird which lost its freedom by being trapped in a cage or even like a man being tied to the ground who only can give the saddest sound, the saddest sound. I don't want to see myself in this state, so why nother to put on the mask and let people see my mask. I want people to know me as my true self, the only me, the true me, not the one which a mask.

With the mask on, they will only see the mask. (Mask can be bought everywhere) The unique me will be gone, gone with the wind. So why bother to wear the mask.

Yes, people will tell me wear that to protect myself from some people's "backstabbing" scheme. I have nothing to lose, so more i should not wear the mask.

I believe that people should know the true me, the me who has no mask at all. The me who shoudl honesty, love, smile and friendliness to all. Yes, i may be stupid to think like that, so what? For at least, i will feel more happy, lighter and more relaxed. Life will be more colourful and more fruitful.

So? Masks are nothing but stuff that will make me tired and make me to turnto someone who i will not recognise me. I don't want that to happen. So? The person who will talk to you, laugh with you, cry with you will the true me, no mask. But, with true heart and full sincerity.


So that will be, the true me, the unique true me. Cos Smile will bring to all discourage, drive troubles away for all thr troubled people and drain worries out of people. Yes, that will me, the person who sees troubles and worries as part and parcel of life, but, happiness and laughters as the must in life. Cos smile bring the world together even closer and spice up my life.


call me stupid if you want, i don't care.
I just wanna be the one who is free and relax.
Haha...


People says that i have a sound EQ, so what is EQ? Am i so good? haha...
Anyway, thanks..

Large group > two ppl

Guess what? I'm off today. Not for fun, but to do something serious later (some would know what i mean!)

Some people says that clubbing is a waste of money and youth, i beg to difer. Well, it may cost money, but if you are able to see the fun and enjoyment you can get, then you will feel that it is worth, sometimes, the money and of course the time. I'm a person who usually love to play and seek for enjoyment to max, so i fully support actvities like clubbing la, social gathering blah blah blah. Well, life is short, why not make it a fruitful and exciting one? Haha (craps short here liao)

Ok ok, i went club MIAO MIAO (momo) yesterday. Yes, i know club momo has a minimum age restriciton of 21, but yesterday was the party night, or shold i say is the R&B and retro night, so age restriction is reduced to 18. (That means i can go!)

Well, the initial is a little turn-off (I mean for me). I was thinking of drinking some alcohols andbe high a little and to start dancing. But, well, it is okay. So we set at one corner of the place to wait for someone who i don't even actually know. Hahaz...

Well, the dancing part actually only start at 12am, which i think is rather late. Ok la, after all, still dance to the max. Hahaz..

The turn off, the group whom tagged along went off at about 2plus am, so we also go off after that too. (Did i say anything about the music?)

After the party, both me and my bro realised that we should have asked out many of our own circle of friends. (i agree inorder to push to the max!!)

Never mind, there is still next time!! Haha...

Ok, i'll crapped more after more tuition!

PeRvErTiC aLiEn

Her mother cried, she's very depressed. The ultimate feelings of both of them -> Stress.
I smiled, i laugh and even made jokes to lighten their moods, but to no avail.

Oops, must introduce the whole story.

My student will be taking her PSLE in less than three weeks time, her mathematics is still so weak so weak... Her prelim results so bad so bad that her mother cannot take it but to cry.

I consoled her and supported her emotionally.. In hope she would be able to calm down..

Haiz... Just an exam, need not to be so stress one le....


So what can i do?


Sometimes i wonder if i'm a good teacher or not...
Haiz..
Sickening question...



Mum!! Help is deeply appreciated!!

OMG

You may have touch dirty things which in turn to cause you to get this..
YOu may have not enough sleep that's why you get this...
You may eat too much heaty stuffs that cause you to get this..
You ...
YOu..

What so ever la... Thanks for all the advises..
Ulcers, or rather to be exact Mouth Ulcer
Stupid ulcer.. I cannot eat with comfort or even sit at one side with comfort..
Can anyone comfort me?

My lips are dry, but, i'm not thirsty.
Thanks to the mouth ulcer..

Professional killer, anyone?
Kill the stupid ulcer of mine....

Mum!! I've got a big bloody ulcer in my mouth..
It doesn't want to come out...

In fatigue, exhausted, drained out, letharg....

The alien survived for 56hours before giving up to let his miserable body to take a small break - 5HOURS!! Ahem.. A small break indeed! However, the 5hours rest did a great wonders to the alien -- giving him more energy to fight and win the battle. Yes, the battle, which cannot be lost at all. That is, the battle to bring a smile and joys in the face. To win and overrule the worries and troubles of each day. Exhausted he may feel for today, he don't not feel a sense of drained out at all.

1730hrs - his memebr in the asteriod 3225 telepoted to him, it was time for him to unlock the door of the 2nd prison to breathe in the air of the civilians. He still don't feel a sense of fatigue at all! Ok, so what did he do? Go for a run.

3km in 10.30mins, how the hell did he do that? Well, god knows. Finally, it's time the body commented something. YOu stupid master, i'm tired. I want to rest. Stop or i'll stopped the regular rythemic motion of the heart and wonderful flow of the blood. Stupid idiot!!

2000hrs - the moon waved at him. Alien, time to go and rest!!

So what's the alien now?
Oops,

here!! (0-0)

The guy who sits in front of the screen now - oops, that's me

It has been 50hours since i closed my eyes and lie on a bed and rest. Yet, i still don't feel any sense of exhaustion nor my eyelids are heavy!! Just came back from a relax and slow walk around at Causeway Point, Woodlands.

Finally, i must agree with waht Da said yesterday (Or rather this morning) sometimes impluse shopping is the best thing on earth. Yup, i saw some wonderful accessories and clothing and bought it at that point of time, well, it cost quite alot, but so what? Buy and be happy about it lor!

Maybe till now, since yesterday afternoon, i have yet to make any decision that i regretted. Like meeting up for the dinner and get-together session and even not to sleep or going to Woodlands for a walk and breather before i start my NEW MONDAY@@ I spent about hours in the area and finally before i left the vincinity, musics from the NIE band caught me and forced me to stay to enjoy the wonderful performance. Though it was only an hour or so, it is the first time of the many months that i have watch live musical concerts. Now, i'm tempted to play my instruments. Haha... Making my whole body itch, cannot i have the urge, i have the urge!!! Haha...


Ever since my ex broke my tennis racket into 2 pieces (Don't ever ask me how she did that! This is strongly because I also can't figure that out!), i'm tempted to buy a new tennis racket. But with the fear of not fully utilising it , i have not buy any yet. I'm tempted to buy!! Help help!!! I'm tempted!! I'm desperate! Oh no!!
Should i or should i not? Should i? SHould i not?


Guess what, my ex came back this weekend to celebrate Mooncake festival here, i have co-ordinate alot of movements to surprise her and in hope to win back her, but ultimately abolish the plan. Good horse don't eat back head grass (Erm.. translate DIRECTLY back to Chinese please). And anyway, i'm not in the mood to go into BGR to lock my freedom and my time. Haha.. So nope, no never at this moment!


I'm evil, i'm energetic, i'm hot..
And
Hungry!

Mum!! Where's my dinner?

Tired, wonderful

IF you take away food from me, i'll say nothing.
If you take away water from me, i'll still say nothing, but maybe i'll die just couple of days later.
If you take away money from me, i'll still remain silent and continue with life.
But,
if you take away my brothers and friends from me, i'll die on the spot.

Haha... Stupid analogy!

Oh well, my mind is in the state of no control. NO control! Just came back home from the guys' night (I call it this way). Met up Dada, Willy and Sumi just couple of hours ago. Everyone changed except one (If you know who you are, please dun feel sad). Sumi - i shan't comment any. Dada - more matured, funky and charismatic, i should say. Willy - sad to say, he is still the WW i knew in Sec 3. (WW, well, go guess what is it)
Though i cannot fully re-enact what has actually happened throughout the night, but, i can fully remember and maybe this will stuck with my forever! Haha...

I tired, but was awaken by the wind, the strong wind. <>


I actually looking forward to next gathering with Dada and gang.

A bold attempt

Sound stupid, but i did it.


Yesterday, on my way home from Padang, i chatted with the taxi driver like the way i talked to my brothers - laugh, lame with him and told him all about things happening and why happened in S'pore.

Today, while having a hair cut, i joked with the barber and even talked to him about all my thoughts and feeling.

Sound little crazy and nuts, but i'm trying to accomplise 1 goal. To make the whole surrounding of mine a livelier one and to make friends with people whom i never know before.


A little stupid, but i think it is worth my while to do it.

Yeah 2

Well, didn't manage to finish whatever i wanted to say just now....
Wow, did not know that i could actually finish the 21km without breaking down or even giving up.
Yup, i admit that at the 18km mark, i actually wanted to fall out and forget about the whole thing. But, luckily, due to the group of good friends that supported me today at the race.

Ken - Although you were not able to run for the 21km, but your presence has already given me the power and motivation to take on the challenge.

Ah jos - thanks for running with me at the 18km mark till the end of the race.

Well, they may not get to see it.. BUt, who cares, as long as i feel this way, i'm happy

yEah

I finished my 21km AHM today.
I managed to finsh the whole race in about 2hrs and 20mins.
Though it may not be a fast timing, or maybe a lousy one to some people.

Well, it is my results, and i'm proud of it.
What can you do?

Haha

Crazy Question

Call me nuts or crazy or even nothing better to do

According to my understanding that the organism civilisation starts all from bacteria. But, (My question comes) how does those bacteria evolve to give you me, you, dinosaurs and even goldfish? Think this way, there are a rising number of cases of denguie fever in singapore, if we decontaminate the whole earth with the most powerful insecticide (imagine!), we kill all the aedes mosquitoes at one go (ideally!), will there still be mosquitoes in the future? So, if there are, from where and how are they produce created?


Don't you think it is funny? There was a period of time where the earth was left with nothing (thanks to the extinction of our dino dino), how did the mosquitoes survive the period of no blood?? Er.. I know these are stupid questions.




Thanks!

I start to lose my true self

I'm not sure if it is me being overly sensitive or being too 'extras', i have lost my sense of direction, judgement, motivation and even my true self.

Yes, as a guy i should not care so much about the above-mentioned 'stuff'. Instead, i should care more about money, career, future and even ... girls.

But, how do i carry do that when i have lost myself recently? To be honest, i'm completely not sure what i'm doing, what i am planning to do next, my mind has lost to the few stupid theories that some other people gave and told me that they are ttue in today's society.

So am i living in a world of fairytales and dreams? Am i still so naive and stupid to think of my ideal theology? Or am i running away from the facts, which seems to be true?


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Suddenly, i think of him, my 'naive' buddy who i have parted since Sec 1, due to the both of us entering to the different colleges. I think of him because he, i'm not sure if he can see this, is like me. He shares the same ideal theology with me, same type of thinking and same perception as me. As such, i really hope he would be able to enlighten me and bring me back to the path which i used to be in. I tried to find him, called him and even writing to him, but to no avail. No one knows where he is.. I need to power to carry on.

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I've lost my path and lost my theology. When will i be able to find them back? God knows.



Regards

Let me cry out loud, i may need that

Let me cry out loud, i may need that