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Somehow or rather, as the time comes, uncertainty, itself would automatically set in place. After so much of waiting and struggling through, so much of tears and sweats, so much of laughters and joys, so much of learning and eye-opening moments, another chapter of my life would soon come to an end.

I would not say that the past two years are fully utilized, neither would i concluded that it has been a waste or anything in the similar fashion. There were simply many many things that really caught me and set me into thinking after these two years of 'work'.

I could still remember, vaguely, what happened immediately after the high school examination - Uncertainites fell in place and set a pit-hole for me to fall through fears and helplessness. Perhaps after so much of theories studies and memory exercises for 12 years, the sudden exposure to the society, i mean working society in this context, got me into deep apprehension. If you are poor in direction (pertaining to map-reading) and ended up in a cross-road junction, you would roughly understand how i felt at that point of time.

Well, now the same sort of feeling is currently paying me a visit. Yup, soon, it would be a vicious cycle of apprehension.

I guess that is not the point i wanted to highlight here.
After 2 years, 24 months or in another way, 700 over days in the service sector, i have seen people from different walks of life. from the rich, from the poor, juvenile delinquents, snobbish noblemen, innocent young kids, worrying middle-aged folks, carefree pampered guys, real yellow ribbon personnel and etc. I would say that life is full of mysteries and miracles. Afterall, we got to realise that life is not as perfect as what we used to draw when we just knew how to crawl. Indeed, it was eye-opening.

Not forgetting, the friends and good brother that i have managed to make during my period of service. I'm really elated and proud to have them. How nice it would be if such relationship can still grow and be everlasting even when we leave the service together.

Time passes and life still have to carry on. I guess i would miss the place and all the happy times i have when i'm in service. Sweet memories, though there were sad ones too.

Hello new chapter, here i come.

Rejuvenate

Some of the muscles that we would normally used for smiling and laughing are atrophied, they are in a state of disappearance if nothing is done to them. Life might be a little unjust at times - giving us a lot of problems and henceforth creating disllusions. Nonethless, thatn't give us the reason to be and remain gloomy, instead, we should keep our spirits high up. You are what you believe and think you are - someone once told me this. If you think you will, you would.

Believe and it will definitely happen.

I understand and know that it is hard to keep spirit high when we have reached the rock bottom. But, do bear in mind that since we have reached the rock bottom, there isn't any more lower we can fall into anymore. Hence, there is nothing to worry at all.

Keep it going even it is hard, be a man of sette. Don't give up the idea of reaching the fountain when you hit the valley and mountain. Keep on going..

Hahazz.. Smile. Hopefully, it will rejuvenate those muscles..

My thoughts, my mind. A theory to understand.

Just some thoughts

Well, managed to speak to someone who was feeling so sad this morning (given the fact that i didn't have much sleep the whole of last night, hahaz.. mahjong craves settled). And the analogy used was this (if you happened to see this, you will know what i mean) - If you like a fountion so much because it would give you life and water yet upon seeing a big mountain in front of you, you merely shake head and walk away. Then, you might miss the fountion which would be behind the mountain. Why not weight out the pros and cons of everything before sitting on one side of th coin? Yup, so that you would not feel much regret even you are wrong in the future..

This reminds me of a story..
Once upon a time, there was this old man who planted the crop, fetilise them in the barren paddy field daily. The end product of his planting was just a waste of his energy. But, this did not deter him from doing the same old course of actions daily - plant, fertilise and water. This carry on from a few months until a young man, who saw this and could not take what the old uncle do anymore, approached the old uncle and find out why..

Young Man: " Uncle, so you jolly well know that this piece of land is barren and will not give you any yield at all, you have see it for yourself. So why insist on doing so? Why not throw off this piece of land and forget all about it?"

Old Man: " Young Boy, yes, this might be useless. But, if i don't try and give a chance to see if this method works or not, how can i just conclude that this land is useless?"

True enough, after so much of hardwork and preservance, the old uncle's hardwork paid off. The crop yield was exceptionally wonderful during that year.

Ok, i'm not here to promote the art of agriculture nor the method of planting, just link the concept the old uncle said - Why don't give it a chance and see if this works or not, how can i just conclude that?
Yup, same application wise - why not see the picture and let whatever that are involved have a chance to say or prove something before you conclude or decide..

Yup, still mess-up. But life goes on..

Smile and keep the smile going

Yup, i think whatever it is shown here is just simply too true to be further elaborated. And i guess, in life, this is the way to keep people's spirit high up there. So if you happen to see me next time on the street smiling away, perhpas, you will know why...

Somehow or rather, the excitement in me seems not being able to be contain down... Or perhaps, i should just go for a run later to cool myself down..

my legs are wore out, so do my muscles, but i guess this isn't gonna to hinder me to run/

Soon, it will be the freedom day, i ownder if this is a good news or does it gonna to consititute to be a bad one..

Just wonder...

Purely based on my feeling, not out to insult anyone out there.. (Really)

After the sweatout match with Lao Da just now, we went to the coffeeshop to have a drink while cooling down so that we can go home and rest soon.

While sitting in the coffeeshop, most of the time i wasn't listening to what lao dao and my friend were chatting about (sorry, but my mind floated somewhere, explaining now). Instead, my eyes were fixed on this middle-aged uncle who was serving drinks to the customers (hey, i'm straight, just in case some brain cracked wrongly). Anyway, he looked decent, except for the fact that his speech was harder to comprehend and he was wearing a hearing aid on his right ear.

My mind was wondering if the uncle was able to cope with the large flow of crowd or not, given that he might have a hard time to communicate with his counterparts and the customers because of his way of pronouncing and talking, it was rather hard to understand and figure out what he was trying to say, and if the customer was to be those unreasonable and impatient type, would misunderstanding arises? Just by observing him for just 30mins or so, he seems to be able to cope well, except that he took down wrong order just ONCE only. What's the most importantwas that he seems to enjoy that.

Somehow, i felt relieved for him and afraid of facts. Will i end up like him? I'm not saying destructive to anyone here, but just some thoughts. Will i end up like him, whereby people would feel it hard to comprehend my speech and communicate with me?

Dreams...

Somehow or rather, as we aged, the dreams faded off like a fire without a soucre to carry on, diminshed and extinguished out.
Constraints? Or are we just not dare to dream?

Bro, you grow finally..

If life was like this, how nice would it be

If everyday can be a happy day like this, how nice would it be?
When your closest brother finally understand your intention and open his heart with the key he found, your good brothers work hand in hand with you in business and all your band of brothers would work together to excel well. And when all the rest of the long lost brothers are back in actions with you.. What can you ask for already?

If life was like this, how nice would it be??

This is my favourite clubbing song.. by Mariah Carey..

How i wish this would continue forever

If the closest brother of mine would continue to do what he did today, i will be the happiest man in the world (yup, i guess so ba).

Yup, i have not blog for quite some time le (a few days, i guess!). I'm not lazy, it is just that i cannot anything interesting to write until today.

My bro - Ken Ken asked me out for a simple walk walk today (so happy, finally he is free for at least an hour or so. Yup, you might think i'm crazy, but, i'm not lor. It is just that i have not seen this brother of mine for 2 weeks le ba..). We talked about the University application and i told him something that he also agreed (Zi Yun and Min would know what i talk about). His sudden acknowledgement set me into thinking. Should i change my course of study now? Or should i still stick to the decision i made? I'm not really sure...

But, i would say one thing as for now.. I really enjoyed the whole of today and really hope that this would continue.

Handwriting tells alot

After looking at my bro's handwriting and some of my other friends' handwriting, i start to see a link between handwriting and forte subjects.

If handwriting is legibly messy(Very), you would tend to end up to study medicine, engineering.
If your handwriting is a little messy at times, you would tend to study Physics, Law.
If your handwriting is neat, you would end up in Arts Fac or Business Fac.
And if your handwriting is ultimately beautiful, then congrats, you would most prob end up in maths or chemistry.

This is what i observed and cannot be taken as a measure!

Voices that care

Well, i have managed to chance upon this song, one of my favourite songs other than Untitled by Simple Plan. This is one of the classic song that i never forget because of the lyrics.

Some of us are often in dilemma and some of us are always finding ourselves a lone ranger, that includes me and some who are reading this page. This song is strongly dedicated to you and in hope when you face dilemma and think that you are a lone ranger fighting against uncertainties (a big powerful creature), just know that no matter what is it, i'm (If you know who i am in the first place and feel comfortable to share your burden with me) always behind you (do turn back at times, only then you will see me appearing and waving at you) supporting you and accompany along the way.

I'm not here to preach or to say anything that will annoy anyone at all, but, i guess this would serve encouragement to people who are trying their best to do and improve and strive in life but met with setbacks.

Enjoy!!

Suddenly got this stupid thinking

I really thanks ah Jos for sparing some precious sunday night to listen to me and my plans for the future. Thanks, ah Jos!!
After talking to him, a very heart to heart and deep-down talk, i suddenly got to realise that i have lacked of something in life. Work experience, that is. Hahaz.

I took a look at the Classified, from The Straits Times, i have the urge and thought of trying a factory production job, a sales job and a cleaner. I have the urge and curiousity to find out how each job has put ahead for people working in the them and what's the pros and cons about each job. Hahaz..

I don't know why, but thought of such ideas..

So do paper melt?