A sweat-out sunday

The feeling is good when you finally sweat out after a week of rest.

2hours of tennis game
1 hour of gym
30mins of run..

i'm feeling fresh.
Hahaz..

can't wait for tomorrow gathering..

Well, thanks to the Deepavali and Hari Raya Puasa

Yup, the latte session yesterday was ulitmately good and fun, well, mainly because of the crowd that were there.

With my deep sleep debt, i was supposedly to have a tuition this afternoon at about 1pm. Well, the student was too obessed in playing and have completely forgotten to inform me about the cancellation of today's lesson until i turned up at his door and his mother was shocked to see me. Thanks, for making me wasting my half an hour of trip, which could actually consitutte to my sleep, yup, i slept late (or should i say early this morning). What to do? Just keep my wonderful smile on and say "No problem, it's okay. No worries!"

Well, so wasted my bus trip to and fro from his house (Luckily, i use bus consession!).

So, met up with the usual gang of brothers and friends today. Maybe because i don't get to see and meet Sumi for 2 weeks, or maybe because he is simply too depressed by the Involunteering Service he has to offer and result to weekends being taken off for the past 2 weeks, he seems a little impatience and rough. But, that is a small issue.

Oh ya, forget to tell you. Well, went to Geylang to eat the famous Frog Leg Porridge, Soya Bean Milk, Fried dough, Stick-pan dumplings and etc.. Though quite expensive, it somehow worth the money. For at least, the crowd was a fun one to hang out with, the food was not bad. You get to enjoy the fun, laugh and still taste good food with your close buddies and friends. What's more enjoyable than this?

So we are always out there create havo and jokes, mess around and stay happy, doing all sorts of 'throw-face' things, but it is fun. For at least, the whole crowd did that together.

Latte sessions seems to be a must in our group, yup must thanks ah da for introducing the PRATA shop during the 1st dinner met up, now we often hang around the prata shop for our latte session (Teh Tarik, Teh Chinok, Milo Dino and etc..) Like what i say, the crowd is the determining factor for whether the gathering will be fun or not. (Lucky i met the crowd of people who are havo and fun-seeking, so it is never boring to hang out with them. There is not such thing as 1 sec of silence, we are noisy at every instant.)

So pooling should be the next thing in line, but too bad there are simply too many people waiting for the pool games, so we left the place with tears and sorrows (haha!). Parties are everywhere. Bloody Party at Momo, Dracula Night at Safra Yishun, Halloween night at Zouk and etc.. They are almost everywhere today. But, the time, place and human factors, i have to give it a miss. (To me: There are more of such parties. Mambo!)

So am i crazy?

I simply can't wait for the day after tomorrow (it is a good movie! But not in my context here!). There are 2 publics holidays in a row in the coming weeks, if not for the 2 meetings that i have to go this monday and wednesday, well, i guess i would have a 10 days rest. Ok, back to the main point. Monday will be a day i called Guys' Night. Will be going down for crabs, beers and durians (I guess this will make me grow even fatter than before! Oh!). So can't wait for 40 odd hours later.


Matters (anything that has weight and occupy space) of the heart (sounds familiar). So it is always about Love. If you ask me what should you do? I'll only give you this answer:" There are two doors in front of you. A door of confession and a door of waiting. You have only 1 key and this key is very unique, it can open either door but can only be used once. That is, once you used it to open 1 door, the other door will disappear with the wind. So you got a choice now (Irritating, ain't it? ), open the door of confession and tell you dream person about your love about him/her, or, you can just choose the door of waiting and wait for fate to takes place. The cruel thing about these doors is that you cannot see through the doors to see what surprizes and results you would have. To see it, you must open the door. So what to do? Open any one of them, based on the rules set by the heart not mind, and bang on it. If you have choose 1 door, completely forget about the other door. Never to think about what's in the other door, no point. No one can help you to choose the door except your own heart and impluses. Good luck!" Well, friends and brothers can only offer suggestions, whether to open the door or not, it is solely up to you. In this case, let the heart govern the situation since the whole issue starts with the word LOVE and love is in relation with heart. You can wait and hope for miracles, but during the period of waiting, you are not to give up and cry out. Cry means you give up hoping (oh, that's bad.).

Hahaz, so i'm crapping again. So when will i stop talking a;; sorts of lame jokes and craps? When i think that it is the time to do that. Hahaz...

Smile people, together, let's look forward to Monday. (I must admit that i really enjoy hanging around with brothers and friends.) Smile!!

Things will fall in nicely when you know the whole story

(1) Repay misdeed and negative actions with kind deeds
(2) Sincerity and Honesty

Sounds familiar?
Recently, i been trying to follow the above-mentioned sets of principles to govern myself. (sounds very stupid, if not silly)


Friday was indeed a funky yet boring day.
You know that it is a friday, there should be alot of programmes coming up, to spice up the friday. But, to me, it was just like a monday, as i got to suffer in the office for 12 hours before i call it a day (Ok, A DAY!)
What's worst?
My running buddy (the most talk cock one) will be on leave, today was his last working day OFFICALLY before he is discharge from the service in Early Dec. Feeling a little sad, of course, i won't deny. For at least, with him around, running is being made fun and lame. Thanks (i hope he can see it).
My roommate went to clean our room till it was sparkling clean. (Did I say anything about Sparkling Clean?) For a moment, i was stunned and wondering if i was in the wrong room. Bro,,thanks for the clean up, it was really SPARKLING CLEAN lor. Thanks.
So, my favourite hunt out is the coffeeshop at 293, with a cup of teh tarik.
"tea-stirring" session is good, provided that you have a good crowd of people.
I had mine today, the crowd was good, for at least they are a group of very crazy and high people. Pictures fall into places once the story is told.
Well, had quite a lot of latte session with groups of people for the past few months (MILO DINO included). But, there was this one person whom i yet to latte with. Hopefully, soon i can latte with him and clear all my doubts with him. I won't give up trying. But if he does, i, would have no other choice, but to give up. I tried my best and did all i can as friend.
Ok, with all this, i end my day today. ( i think it has ended a few hours ago.)

Bye, be caught with a smile!

IN life, there are uphills (Normally taken for granted) and downhills (Usually seen as s++++ stuff)

Ya, it is me crapping here again.
Well, no choice.
I don't think anyone out there would be so free to hear my nonsense or to even meet me for a 'tea-stirring' session tonight. It is me, only me, with myself all alone in the coffeeshop just now. 1 pathetic soul sitting in 1 pathetic corner drinking my tea with milk sadly. Did i say anything about saddness?

In life, unwanted surprizes always pop out from nowhere and sure enough to take place in the time space where you will be caught unprepared. Why must such things happen at this time? Why must all the disgusting incidents happened as a package?

Although i did said that to take things as part and parcel of life (Yea, that is why i'm always being labelled as escapist), well the initial outbreak of the news is always so irritating. You don't know what to do, how to react and how to go about from there. You feel like pouring all the shit out to someone but someone is not there. You feel like banging against the wall, but afraid of the pain. You feel like going for a drink, but it is so lonely to do that. So what's worst? Going for a cup of milk tea with casper and hid in one pathetic corner to let the so-called 'initial thoughts' to go away, so that a solution can be derived from the neurons of the small yet powerful brain. Yup, back to normal. Thanks.

So, the celebration for the Freedom's countdown will start with a maroon mambo next week as an opening party, followed by a Rythem Blue base. Soon enough more programmes will just come in. Life is full of great surprizes. And December is full of fun.

Smile! I think i should end here.
Call it a day... (Ok, A DAY!)


Suddenly, i'm craving for prata. Maybe i'll go there tonight or even tomorrow night..

Ya ya

Today i'm early to write here.
Why?

It is best not to know at all. Yes, that will be my answer.

Suddenly in this 'limited' organisation someone pinpoint something that i think it is actually worth some considerations. He told me that since i got the momentum to study in University now (I mean as in next year), i got the heart to keep learning (Don't seems to be me), i should go for a double major, if not a 3 subjects major (Never heard of that, roughly know what he meant). Ok la, me personally intended to do a double in Uni, so what he had said today seems to describe my plan (phase 5 of 10).

Interesting.
Why?
For my impression to him was diligent (Er.. where got?)

Anyway, today is just like any other day. Miss some fun, trap in here, do s*** work, count to freedom day. Everything is the same, same old clothing, some old breakfast, same old face, same old s***.

Nothing has changed, sadly.
When will it be the day where i opened my eyes, i see surprises. (not as in heart attack, fast killing ones).

So when will it be?
Haiz..

Anyway, feeling a little not usual when got to know that the reposnee for the next gathering is not very exciting. Ok la, change the timing and venue and see how.

I seems to be free this week
appear to be free that week
going to be free the following week
So am i free?

Hahaz.. Time to go.

Parallel Universe

There are many types of people in the world - fat ones, slim ones, tall ones, short ones and etc. Oh, it is no wonder that some people clicks with you, and some don't.

So you are quite angry that some people act and think differently in front of you? You feel like being cheated?
Oh well, tell me there is a glass of water in front of you now and apparently it contain 50ml of water out of the 100ml capacity. Is it half filled or half emptied? Not many people agree that it is half filled. NOt many people will agree that it is half emptied either. Even such simple questions can have different views, what about the impression you gave to others?

So no point being angry for such trival matters, i called it trival because i think it is totally no point brooding over it.

People click well with you when they got to understand your history, your attitude and characters. So if they don't like you, why? Cos they don't know you well lor.


Don't be angry, don't feel sad or mad. No point, relax an be yourself. Be the whoever you want, for at least, you know you never let yourself down. Be happy, be funky, be caught with a smile, cos Xingz's theory of smiley said so. (Yeah, becasue of this attitude of mine, people labelled me as escapist.)

Lookk forward to things that make you happy, look forward to December 05.
Yup..
To know more, stay tune.


SMILE!
Cos it brings courage to the discouraged
Drives troubles away from the worried
Spice up life
Bring the world closer

Be caught with a smile

So, who don't look forward to it

Yes, Chalet, Cycling, Bowling, Tennis, Pub, Club and etc. Who won't look forward to such fun? Yes, it is all in the one and only Dec 05.

The theme for the December will be Live Fast, Die Young.
Sound a little turn off, but i think it should be this way. So as to show all of us that things cannot be taken for granted and that ther are no such need to preserve energy for future fun. Wanna to play? Better play now..

After many days of flunctations, i got myself settled down and back to my normal self again. Oh well, the crazy, happy go lucky one (Yeah yeah call me escapist if you want, i don't give damn anymore!)

So there are more programmes coming up, to get the most updates events?
Stay tune at red dragonfly.blog
Oh yeah!

Smile bros and frens.

I love my address of my blog

Yup, i love the URL of my blog.
It somehow describe my feelings and my attitudes in life.

Especially at this stage of life, where i'm not a nerdy boy and not yet a matured man, there are still issues that are too complex for me to handle..

I'm just like a red dragonfly, growing up slowly and appreciating the times i had.

Just managed to end off my chatting session with Aries. I must really thanked her for the point she highlighted and reinforced. What she mentioned was quite correct - I should not let those people to run me down . As long as i'm clear of what i'm doing, the intention was good, i should not be affected by those wonderful comments. For those comments did affected me initially, but as time passed, i got over with it.

Life is full of challenges.
Oh well, nothing much happned this week, i'm still the same old me, still the same silly idiot. Wahaha...

If at one point of time, a wrong decision has been made, what would the ending be?

Homo sapiens have to make decisions day in day out, to decide what to eat, what to wear, whaere to go, what to do and etc. Basically, the ability of making decisions seems to be inbuild in us ever since we open our eyes and see this beautiful yet funny world.

The question is not whether we know how to make decisions or not, but if the decision made was correct and right or not. I cannot say that i always make a right decision, i'm always the kind who always get into stupid and funny situations.

Still, there are many things of which i chose in my earlier part of my life which i'm glads i did that. Oh well, this part may get a little emotional and sensitive. If you get to understand what i mean, i think it is good for you, but if you don't, i won't blame you or whatsoever.

In the nutshell, i'm glad that i have a bunch of good brothers and friends (Ppl like Sumi, Kian, Da, Willy, Sing, Min, Xiang, Mei, Zi Yun {i prefer to call her Zi Ying}, Weisi, Ken Ken, Chris and etc.) I'm really very thankful for they are always there to hear my nonsense and go out with me. Really very happy and thankful. Yeah, i know that as a guy, i should not get emotional in such issues, there are still alot of things for me to do and alot of responsiblities for me to assume.

I don't mind being emotional, for at least i will not regret or feel sorry for not saying or doing things that i should. Yes, i'm a paranoid. Time is short, there are so many cases to proof this statement. I'm aware of this sentence and carry this with me. That is why i don't wanna to reserve now for my future. Call me stupid and silly.

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Friends gathering sessions! Some people think that it is a chore, some people think that it is a duty as a friend, some people hate it. But to me, it is a catching up session. A time where i get to see my bros and friends, talk and laugh with them. All i want is just a simple high tea session. A time where we get out of the rigid and routine day where we slogged for our future, just sit there with a cup of milk tea and talk about issues that would keep the friendship fire going, keep my spirit high and boost my morals for a better me.

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My days to uni life are getting closer and closer. I have heard of the Uni politics, yet, i'm still looking forward to it.

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Yes, i think i'm crazy again...

I'm still in phase 1 of my 5 year plan

I know i'm a little far-fetched, but ....

There are many things that i did seems a little far-fetching, i know that, i can sense that, let me recite this story, to explain my far-fetching actions..

My mom received this phonecall from her best friend's daughter a few weeks ago. She cried bitterly over the phone, as her mother was warded into the hospital due to profusely bleeding in the brain. My mom's best friend was in concession for almost three days, even though at this moment of my recital she awoken from the trauma, she hardly recognised anyone except my mom.

Upon hearing this news, my mom was very worried, and to the point where she, herself was down with minor illness. My mom nearly cried when she told me this new, her best friend was only in the mid of her life (given that the average expectancy of SIngaporean woman turns out to be 80). Yet, she has such a serious illness.

Doctors have indicated that she was still at risk, and may just called by the Lord any moment in time.

My heart sunkened and my mind went wild..
If one day, i was just to leave the world like that (so quietly and suddely), what would happened?
If one day, one of my very good buddy was to bid me forever, I know i will cry, i will be very sad. But, would there be anything i would regret telling him? Would there be any moment of fault finding?

And solely because of these, i've treasured the friendship i have with people with utmost sincerity and honesty. I may sound stupid here, i may sound unreal here, but, this is what really came to me after my mom told me her story.
I look stupid and dumb to put too much trust and faith, but, this is the real me.

People accused me to be faking and unatural, to be acting and trying to buy people's sympathy. I don't need that and i don't want your sympathy.

Time is running short.


Suddenly i misesed quite a number of people >> I missed the friends who been through with me in my school life, etc.
If they could all appeared right i front of me, i feel like saying, friend i miss you. Thanks for my friend. Thanks for accepting my nonesense and lameness. Thanks for all the help you rendered to me. Thank you...

Cramps! Arh!!

Last night was a cooling and comfortable night, partly due total exhaustion, i slept like never sleep before.

It was 4am, i could recognise the tune played by my oldgrandfather clock, it was a 60's childhood tune, la-me-so-do-la... Yes, the surrounding temperature was very low, very relaxing and cosy. Simply heaven, i should say.
Suddenly, something bad happened. Arh!! I had a cramp, that lasted for an hour. Stupid cramp, brought me back from my wonderful dreamland, woke me up from my exciting sleep (like what i said, i slept like never sleep before, you can guess how sweet i had slept).

What's worst? The stupid cramp was with me for the whole day. I felt the sensation when i went for a jog this morning, felt the pain when i was eating my lunch and etc.. till now!

Kaoz... WTF!

Some say that the body is showing a warning signal, indicating that the body salt is low, that's why cramp.
Some say that the body circulation is bad, that's why cramp.
Some say that the oxygen depth is high, that's why cramp.
Blah blah blah..
Hm.. Can any kind soul out there tell me why there are cramps?
Yes, i'm stupid!

Ok, i think i should stop here and go sleep.
Smile people! :) that's the way, keep this spirit up!

Sometimes, it's because of these things...

I guess my week has started off with bad news and events. All thanks to the organisation which forced me to be in and snatching away my freedom, my youth, my time and energy etc. What's worst? Fancy saying that we are one big family, but, behind the door, there are tons and tons of regulations and restrictions which are bound to bully me and torture me. Why did i end up in this shit in the first place?

Yes, we are there, but not there yet. How? I can't wait for June 06 to come. I'm pregnant, wanting to give birth to a brand new life!

WTF!! What the!! Haiz..

Never mind, No matter waht, nothing is gonna to stop my way, my life and my attitudes to life...

Forget it..
Smile people, just smile! Cos it bring courage to the discouraged (that's me), drive troubles away from the worried (That's me). Spice up the life (My life) and bring the world closer! Haha

OPK, i admit, i'm on fever now! Haha

Live fast, die young

Nice phrase, isn't it? It describe the way we humans are dying to live, with the attitudes that time is short.

Yes, time is short, just like money. Anyone out there dares to counter-agrue this point? I bet there isn't any. Recent natural disasters and diseases have proven this point. And prove that no matter how powerful homo sapiens could be in terms of technologies and knowledges as compared to other living creatures on earth, we are , but, fragile when it comes to death. Just a mere sufforcation, hunger, thirst or even a small mosquitoe bite could send you home to be with the lord. So aren't we, the mankind, very susceptable to death?

So time is the major factor that decides how long we live, but not the way we live. Any rebutters? You are the one to decide who you are, where you come from and what you have to be proud of and be satisfied of, not the Mother Nature, for her job is only to allow you to enter this world and leave this world at the end of the day. It is you. But most of us are too obessed with materialism and henceforth, 're-wrote' the meaning of needs and want. Most of the time, we are chasing after what we want and not what we need. Thereafter, feeling sad and get disillusions, ie. starts to hate life, get bored with it, wishing for all dreams, and thinking of the word 'If'. All thanks to materialism.

Well, today is a wonderful sunday. Although i feel exhausted, all thanks to the involuntarily service i was forced to render in which there are regulations that are out to bully people like me, this never bring me down. I went out to for the entire day with my brothers and friends. For a lunch, a movie (The Skeletion Key) and a dinner session. I don't about the rest whom i went out for today or any other days, but as for me, i feel a sense of satisfaction and great joy when going out to meet brothers, buddies and friends. The sense of enjoyment and satisfaction is so hard to describe but you know how it feels, to me it is great for at least it will brighten up my days and keep me going to fight with fate.

But the turn off thing for today is the rain. (Rain rain go away come again another day, little xingz want to play. Hey rain, go away!) But the rest is enjoyable. The movie was nice in the sense that though the beginning part is a turn-off, the climax was fast and soul capturing. The twist of the story was complexing but brought to light in the end. Thrilling and exciting, complex yet well-explained. I would give it a 4 star for the story board and plotting.

If watching movie will teach you things, for this at least, i learn 4 words >> Live fast, die young.

What about you?

Smile, cos it would bring courage to the discouraged, drive troubles away from the worried. Spice up life and bring the world closer..

So i end off by telling my plan status for the day - Phase 1.
: )

I gave up explaining

Haiz... So people at my age must have a girlfriend and bring her home to let parent see so as to have the passport to "peace" at home?

For a moment i thought my parents would most prob understand why i refused to have a girlfriend now (though part of the reason is that Nobody would want me!). Their reaction today upon seeing my future sis-in-law bewildered me for the whole evening. I have no peace at the diner table. Help!!

So people at my age must go find 1 girl? Please! I got my 5 years plan to go ahead with and no time for all such things >>

To put it simple: I have don't think i have the time, strength, effort and brain to think of where to eat, where to bring her for our dates, gifts to buy and important dates to celebrate. I have no such energy to do that now, what's worst, i don;t want to tied down my freedom because part of my freedom have already gone to the involuntarily service that has all the regulations that are out to bully me. I want the remaining freedom, out of control by people. I want my freedom and time to be spent my way.

Moreover, girls nowadays are not my cup of tea (Coffee or even any drinks you want to call). They aren't like Cecilia Lau, so won't catch my attention. Trying to look elegant but tends to end up like plastic roses. Wanna to outshine other girls but tends to look like 1 x big clown. Having accessories around for wanting to stand out the crowd but like so fake and overly-decorated, seems like xmas tree to me. (I mean SOME girls, if you are angry, well, that means you are 1 of them lor). No class, no sense of elegance and no sens of purity, yes i that's the word Purity. Not even near the the woman of wisdom and elegance, purity and class, sophistical and well-mannered, mature yet not proud. If you want to now who is i'm describing, Cecilia Lau, that is!

So i have explain for the 1 last time, so don;t ever come and ask me for reasons again.

Mum, let me off

If

If i were not in the secondary school that i were in and if i did not choose to go to a Junior College, what would i be today?

If i gave up the certain things in life and persist on others, who would i be today?

If i had made decision fast and swift, where would i be today?

If, if i , if i could, if possible. This is the word that do cause uncertainty to life. How nice would it be if there is not if.


I have heard enough of people coming to me and start to regret the decision they made some days ago and sitting there just crying over a spilled a milk, i do sympathize them for i have been to such situations too. But, besides sitting there crying and re-anacting the stupid mistake, can we do something about it? It is good to remember and keep the incident deep in the heart, but, can we not let the whole incident become a blockage? Sound alittle tough, but it takes just the mind to do the small change.

So Xingz's theory of smiley has failed to let you smile and be happy for the day? So did you wholeheartedly smile ? Or smile for the sake of smiling?

Sounds a little 'loop-sided', but hey, i'm normal guy! Yes, people keep telling me to find girls, find a girlfriend. Yes, but for what purpose , may i know that? To trap my time and freedom? I don't mind looking around, but i would definitely mind going into one. Reasons? I don;t have to strength to commit such thing, and i think i am not matured enough to handle these. The past two examples are the supporting evidences. I'm a guy of extreme ideas and weird thinking, no point focring a girl to suffer (amyway, i think most of the girls are not willing to do that lor). In a nutshell, nobody would want such a guy like me fullstop

Ok, i'm tired and i'm sick liao...
zZZ

Emotional? Am i?

People, some friends of mine, thinks that i have been too emotional in matter fo friendship and that might cause me to get hurt easily. I merely smile back to them.

I don't know, but i did not feel that way. So maybe what they say is correct, but i personally feel that it is normal, for i don't want to miss a thing, or even to regret with anything in later stage of life. Yes, regrets are inevitable, just like breaking of friendship. But, are we going to just sit there, happily munching the popcorns and let the so called 'inevitable' change to take place and say that life is sucky because friendship seems to be easily broken and hereby conclude that there is no true long lasting friendship? Are we going to measure friendship by time factor? Let's say 8years of friendship is closer than of 8 months? Are we going to wear the masks to meet up different people and even to wear a mask to chat with 'buddies' and 'brothers'? Are we just going to give up once one-side of the friendship decided to give up?
Are we? To me, the answer will be absolutely no, no way and will not! I believe, i hope and i'm sure! So, since such things are preventable and could be change, why just let the word 'inevitable' rules out all?

I don't quite understand, maybe because we were once taught of this mindset of alarmness and protectiveness, bewareness and etc. We are so busy with all sorts of money-making ideas and materialistic thoughts that we have lost the fundamentals of living - to love and to share, that is. (Scold me stupid, outcast me if you think you would like too) But, the world is sort of lacking this and i think we should take note of it.

I have some painful lessons in the are of friendship, really painful lesson, that serve as constant reminder and ways in teaching me to be a better friend and true believer. (Called me Stupid if you want to)

I will still insist on my stand and will do my best to stay affirm with it in future, for i don't want to see the same old story happening to me again.

Yup, the sickly me will now end here, thanks for spending your time to see my crazy thoughts. Yes!

Time to sleep.
Smile, people! : )
That's the way!

I'm happy

Call me stupid if you want..

Suddenly i feel that the cruel world has abandoned me for its inevitable changes. Why? For this moment, i feel that the world is still beautiful. Hahaz..

Like what i say, this week is a good week (Ref: Yesterday's post). Yup, today is a good head start. My next - bed most closest buddy messaged me today, now! Yeah!

Nothing much to add on, but to just to say >> SMILE people!

It is so strange that i cannot explain

Ya ya ya, that's the title. Life is still the same for me during the weekdays. Being the 'servant' in the green, torturing the student after 7, doing some self improvement after 10 and dream of nothing after 12. Those are the daily routine, so routine that i nearly go mad and get so sick and tired of it.

Sometimes, i wonder if i would be a good teacher or not? For me being not serious, not fierce and even talking lame topics with students at times during lessons. They think that i'm crazy, they are crazy! For wanting to see me throwing my temper. Ya ya. Me? Nice? Haha, i fell off from the chair!

Life turns dull when 1/2 of your day is contributed away without your consent to some organisation that always make your thinking to be in the box. But, forget it, nothing can tie down a chirpy and crazy idiot like me, especially my 'contract' will be over in less than 8 months time! No way! Yeah!

Weekends are to be funky and crazy! Yeah!

Well, these are what i did for these weekends (Friday nite to Now)

Well, went to drink at Jackson's house for the whole night. Together the four of us finished a bottle of Chivas (40% conc.), a bottle of red wine (Vintage 3) and 3 cans of beer. Oh my! Once in a while is okay! But not every weekend! PLease!
So what did i do on saturday? Yeah, tuition. No choice, students are having their Promo, O's and A's very soon. They are stressed and i'm not! And there i went watching Drama Series till 2 in the morning.
Sunday was the climax! Morning 5, i was woken up by my buddy for asking me to go Chinatown for morning tea! Oh god! Yeah, just a tea in the morning. MORNING! Ok, never mind. After the long session of morning tea, i went back to Yishun to meet da, sumi, min, willy and mei. But along the way i met my brother (Fred) who is also in OCS and same platoon as Willy. He changed a little, in terms of speaking. Yeah, after a long lunch, we went played pool, i'm shocked that i'm still able to play reasonbly well (Ok, for my standard!). Follow by a dinner and BOOM.. Here i am, in front of the computer screen.

I like to hang out with friends, for at least you can talk till you drop. Hahaz..

Now i'm itching for tennis or even bowling... Help!

Hahaz...

This week will be a good week. Why? You go and discover it, i'm not going to tell you why!!
:P

Hahaz.. Smile!! Smile!!

Once hit the peak of high, prepare to vomit

Yeah, drinking a can of tiger will warm the stomach up to prepare the body to take more alcohol.

Drinking chivas coke is nice as it is smoothing to the throat and bring out the finest taste of the liquior.

Finishing the smoothing action by drinking the 40% conc ice chivas will perk up your body and hereby making you feel high. There you go, wanting the dance (Music like Its like that, don't phunk with my heart and etc.. all those R&B, drum based song pieces are the once to keep you going high.

If you are a wine taster and know your limit to alcohol, by sipping red wine (conton del' traval) and know how to make it purgin your alcohol around the body, you will feel relieved, the feeling you never had before. You feel hot and the alcohol content is running around oyur blood vessels, but, you will not feel any sense of drunkard.

But, if you happen to finish your alcohol session but drinking frosted tiger, tiger on straw or even lime tiger, i promised that you would have to spend hours and hours in your toilet and maybe days before you will feel fully stupor.

Yup, but if you can take the heat and finish it with vine (i think correct spelling). The rest of the night you will find ultimately high and wanting to dance.

Yes..
I'm evil and naughty, one friend of mine puke because of the frosted tiger i served him after his chivas and red wine. Hahaz...

Stupid Impulse here again

Suddenly, i thought of picking up a violin or even a cello to play a few songpieces, be it Ophenus or be it concerto, just play to vent out all mixed feelings that i have experienced for the past few days. Hahaz..

Or even to pick up a tennis racket to play for hours. If not, just to run for hours and hours.

Well, if you are a guy, you would probably guess out that i have been tied up by the sets of discipline set by my organisation. (I have to re-affirm this point : I have been involuntarily drawn into this wonderful organisation, which has various sets of rules, regulations and whatever that are out to bully poor souls like me.) Sometimes i always wonder why must i spend part of my youth, which i could have spend 'chionging', chilling or even studying to be a better me, on this service where not even a single of appreication praise was given to me for the work i have done. (Forget it, i don't think it should gets into my way, my life and even my mood)

These three days have been yet another smooth-sailing days for me, nothing happened. No disaster. No anything! With the exception of stress from my tuition students, yes, they are having exams these few days and weeks. Of course, i have been slogging for these past few days, running to various places to do a final burst of revision for all my students. In hope that they can pass with flying colours. (Erm.. i think colours don't fly!!)

Really look forward to late october and november to chilli out with buddies and friends.
Halloween party @ Mao mao anybody? Hahaz... I must be crazy.

Yes, i'm tired, my eyes are very dry. I think i should go and sleep soon.
Yup..

Hahaz...

Just another entry

Don't get mistaken by the title of this particular entry, it is just that i'm not sure how to name this entry.

I think my age is catching up faster than i think. I must really admit that i getting older.. Last night, i stayed up all night just to watch the drama series "A date with vampires 3", i mean VCDs. Backaches and headaches were the 'alarm' to wake me up this morning. Hahaz, too old for all these stuffs.

Finally, i have my very last lesson today, quite relieved that i still manage to urge myelf to study, and most importantly, to even survive through the 2 months or so to complete this course.

Nothing much for today or even since my last entry.

Before i end, i think i should write this down, if you understand them, good for you. If not, still good for you.


Life is full of unpredictable things. Nonetheless, we still must believe in miracles. BY crying or even feeling a slightest sad feeling means that we are giving in to fate and we gave up believeing in miracles. Time and distance are not the determining factors of friendship, or even the degree of friends we were. As long as we are friends at this moment, we will be friends, even the next moment would be the end of the world, we would still be. Because the next moment is still not hee yet, miracles still bound to happen. What matter the most is NOW!!


Hahazz

Accepting the facts? or Escapist?

I know i'm changing, in terms of looks, attitudes, thinking, emotion intelligence and even the way i deal with things. Deep down, i know that i'm really undergoing a drastic change, a change that is never seen before. BUt, i'm not sure if i'm changgin positively or otherwise (which is usually unwise).

What on earth have actually causing me to under such changes? I don't know, but what i know is the changes seems to be so drastic that it has completely eatne up the old me, the nerdy blur me, that is.

In my point of view, things have started to become part and parcel of my life. For instance, being bullied by people, or even to sink into unwanted s*** seems not being able to nknock me off, or to even dampen my slightest feeling. I'm not sure if this is good or not, to me, these seems to be part and parcel of life which is not even a worth to be upset about.

Many years ago (when police still wear shorts), i take studies as my whole life. The top priority would of course be studies. Weekends would be spent at home to read, memorise and practise hard for the upcoming big, internal testas and examinations. Ten year series would be my bible, notes would be my bedtime stories. Now, weekends would either be for me to chiong, if not, for me to play. Assessment books, notes would not be in my life. If there are books, it be Magazines. I really cannot imagine what would to happen when next year comes.

Some people take me a funky and havo one, fun would be the word to describe my activities. Some people might take me as an escapist. So how?

If you were to ask me how i think>> Well, life is damn bloody short, it is no use to reserve and wait for future. NOw is the future, now is the time. You want to play just play, want to chiong just go, want to do anything, just do it. There is practically nothing to be upset about bcause things would not always turn out the way we want them to be. Life is just like christmas, we would tend to get what we would expect than what we would want. So no point being upset about anything lor, whereas, we should be happy that we are still alive to do things that we desire. Call me stupid if you want. But, i'm not going to care.
I'll do what i think is okay for me, cos i dun want to regret in the end.
Ther are many regrets for me in the past, i have been sad for many things. Along these, i have overlooked all the things that i can be happy about and i can do with.


Yes, i'm stupid to think that i am contented with what i have now or what were given to me. But, i think it is worth it. Like friends, each and every individual person crossing my path would be of upmost importance to me. I can live without food, without water for some days. But, i'll die immediately if i'm without my friends. Stupid? Okay la..